Please Don't Stop the Music

I love music.
I legitimately considered stopping the post right there, but I guess I should continue. Music takes me away from depression. Although the wrong song can dig me deeper in, the majority of music is one of the only remedies I have found. Listening to music takes me to another place. That's why I posted that Noah and the Whale song on my last blog (read it if you missed it). I also love watching live music. It doesn't even have to be good. I just appreciate people stepping out and giving a piece of them for me to experience. I feel connected to live music in a profound way.

Finally, of course, there is the actually performing of live music. Oh man does this change who I am. I feel like I can be whoever I want when I play music, especially live. It's an amazing feeling, more so, from my experience, for someone with depression. I live my day to day life under oppression by depression (intentional rhyme) not able to be who I want to be, and then all of a sudden that burden is lifted. Music allows me to be anyone that I want to be. For just a little while, I don't have to deal with the crap in my life, or if I want, I can use music to help me deal with the crap in my life. It's awesome, and definitely God given.

I felt this a lot last night at the coffee house. It was like I was a different person. I had courage to get on the mic and tell everyone to be quiet. I played with several groups. I really listened to everyone who played and thoroughly enjoyed it. I sang in front of a good number of people with real emotion for the first time in a while. This took me away from everything. I danced like there was no tomorrow and probably looked like an idiot, but didn't care. It was the freest I have felt in a very long time. I even was able to sing a song that I really connect with for what seems like a different reason every time. I'll add it at the end of this post. Normally I connect with it because of the stuff about my dad, or the time I sat out on the deck with my friend all night, but this time I asked Colin if we could sing it because of how alone I felt. It was a really good thing for me to sing (I'm sure you'll see why as you listen to it).

Anyway, hope you guys enjoyed the performance! I sure did. Please feel free to leave comments on here or on my facebook as always, I really appreciate everyone that has taken the time to read these and get to know me a little better. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to practice honesty in a real way.