Well it's been a crazy two weeks. Last weekend was prom 2011, and this week has been very busy with an art show, playing in chapel twice, an evening of honor, and my last coffee house at WA, not to mention a surprise birthday party for my friend. The weird thing is, I don't really have a lot to say about these events as a whole, because my life seems to be wildly inconsistent as of late. Some times I feel great. Other times I feel awful. Some times I just don't feel. I don't know what else to say. I could go into detail and tell you how each thing went, but that would be long and I'd much rather just tell you myself. So please feel free to ask how anything was.
I guess I'll just say that the inconsistency in mood, people, and events has been very confusing and disheartening. This is especially apparent because I have really been trying to hear God's voice lately, and it just seems like I'm getting all of this mixed information. I'm sure he is speaking to me, but I am having a lot of trouble distinguishing it. Sometimes it even feels like I would rather just be crappy all the time so I was used to it. I know that the bad accentuates the good, but it also feels like the good accentuates the bad at times. Yes, this is skewed, but it doesn't change the fact that I feel this way.
Immediately as I started reading this post, I thought of the Relient K song "Let It All Out", specifically the lyrics "Oh inconsistent me, crying out for consistency." That doesn't have much to do with it, but there's always a Relient K reference for something. :)
ReplyDeleteI just want to encourage you that it's awesome that you're trying to hear God. God is so cool in the fact that He always keeps his promises and will meet us halfway if we do our part. Things may seem bleak now, but I promise you that God will pull through. Maybe try to find quiet meditation time. Sometimes when our lives are so busy and hectic, we're running too fast to be able to hear what God has to say. Setting aside time to "chat" does wonders for a relationship.
Keep up with your blog, I enjoy reading it!
You said feel free to ask how anything was... I'd like to know more about the art show! Were you a part of it? And if so, how? Mom says you're very creative & artistic. I'D like to know more! Amy
ReplyDeleteOh, this is how I feel all the time.
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